Showing posts with label Thoughts And Feelings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Thoughts And Feelings. Show all posts

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

我回来了

我回来了,你知道吗?

好累... 好累的半年...

listened back to some old songs... this was one of it... it brings back a lot of high school memories...

here you go... dedicated to you..

Thursday, September 10, 2009

T.T super sad..

The lyrics, one needle see blood =(

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

promises

I wonder does anybody give a damn about promises?

HA HA HA... =)

That's sarcastic...



Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Repost: Why do Malaysians march?

Just to share with everyone of you an interesting article I read at sun2surf.com.

The article entitled "Why do Malaysians march?" was written by Yeo Yang Poh, a former Bar Council president.



WHY march, when the government has said that it will review the Internal Security Act? Why march, when there are other very cosy ways of giving your views and feedback?

One would understand if these were questions posed by nine-year-olds. But they are not. They are questions posed by the prime minister of this nation we call our home. Answer we must. So, why?

Because thousands who died while in detention cannot march or speak any more. That is why others have to do it for them.

Because persons in the corridors of power, persons who have amassed tremendous wealth and live in mansions, and persons who are in the position to right wrongs but won’t, continue to rule our nation with suffocating might. And they certainly would not march. They would prevent others from marching.

Because the have-nots, the sidelined, the oppressed, the discriminated and the persecuted have no effective line to the powerful.

Because the nice ways have been tried ad nauseam for decades, but have fallen on deaf ears.

Because none of the major recommendations of Suhakam (including on peaceful assembly), or of the commissions of inquiry, has been implemented. Because the proposed Independent Police Complaints and Misconduct Commission (IPCMC) is not in sight, while corruption and insecurity live in every neighbourhood; and (despite reasoned views expressed ever so nicely in opposition) Rela (people’s volunteer corps) is being brought in to make matters even worse.

The proponents in “Su Qiu” (remember them?) were not marchers. In fact it is hard to find nicer ways than “su qiu”, because the term means “present and request” or “inform and request”. In terms of putting forward a view or a request, it is the height of politeness. Yet they were labelled “extremists” – they who did not march.

And now you ask, why march?

Because you gave non-marchers a false name! You called them the “silent majority”, who by virtue of their silence (so you proudly argued with twisted logic) were supporters of government policies since they were not vocal in raising objections. You claimed to be protecting the interest of the “silent majority”. Now some of them do not want to be silent anymore, and you are asking why?

Yes, because double standards and hypocrisy cannot be covered up or explained away forever; and incompetence cannot be indefinitely propped up by depleting resources.

Because cronyism can only take care of a few people, and the rest will eventually wake up to realise the repeated lies that things were done in certain ways purportedly “for their benefit”.

Because the race card, cleverly played for such a long time, is beginning to be seen for what it really is – a despicable tool to divide the rakyat for easier political manipulation.

Because it does not take much to figure out that there is no good reason why Malaysia, a country with abundant human resources and rich natural resources, does not have a standard of living many times higher than that of Singapore, an island state with no natural resources and that has to import human resources from Malaysia and elsewhere.

Because, in general, countries that do not persecute marchers are prosperous or are improving from their previous state of affairs, and those that do are declining.

Because Gandhi marched, Mandela marched, Martin Luther King marched, and Tunku Abdul Rahman marched.

Because more and more people realise that peaceful assemblies are no threat at all to the security of the nation, although they are a threat to the security of tenure of the ruling elite.

Because politicians do not mean it when they say with a straight face or a smile that they are the servants and that the people are the masters. No servant would treat his master with tear gas, batons and handcuffs.

Because if the marchers in history had been stopped in their tracks, places like India, Malaysia and many others would still be colonies today, apartheid would still be thriving in South Africa, Nelson Mandela would still be scribbling on the walls of Cell 5, and Obama would probably be a slave somewhere in Mississippi plotting to make his next midnight dash for the river.

And because liberty, freedom and dignity are not free vouchers posted out to each household.

They do not come to those who just sit and wait. They have to be fought for, and gained.

And if you still want to ask: why march; I can go on and on until the last tree is felled. But I shall
obviously not.

I will end with the following lines from one of the songs sung in the 1960s by civil rights marchers in the US, without whom Obama would not be able to even sit with the whites in a bus, let alone reside in the White House:

“It isn’t nice to block the doorway
It isn’t nice to go to jail
There are nicer ways to do it
But the nice ways have all failed
It isn’t nice; it isn’t nice
You’ve told us once, you’ve told us twice
But if that’s freedom’s price
We don’t mind ...”

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Chasing Dreams

My friend once said to me, you must work hard to chase for your dreams.

But ...

today,

While I'm chasing my dreams, I have been chased by my own dreams...

They called themselves nightmares...

* Nothing has changed, but I've already disappoint people I love, and people who loves me. *

Sunday, March 15, 2009

My "Own" Nation

p/s: whatever that I've wrote below were only my own opinions. I'm not intented to criticize anyone nor any parties/organizations. My apologies if I've made any wrong comments and have bad feelings with it. =)

Nationality represents a person's own nation. It tells which country's citizen you are.


and ...... I born in Malaysia.


Yeap, and that's my country's national flag.

I was born here.
Grew up here.
I studied here, graduated from the University here.
and I'm working here too of course.

I've my IC, my driving license, whatever legal documentations that has this column filled :-

Nationality : MALAYSIAN

The beauty of our country was and still is (???) multiracial.

Yes, by multiracial means that it consists of 3 main ethics groups in this country.

Indian, Chinese, and Malay.

It is obvious that the Malays have the biggest "capacity" due to MALAYsia.

And of course we shouldn't miss out the people from Sabah and Sarawak.

Ibans, Bidayuh, Kadazans, Bajaus, and Muruts.

The government always used the word "Multiracial" as the main "selling point" to promote our country. They are always proud whenever they said so. Teaching us and telling us that we all (should) live happily ever after... and blah blah blah of bullshit... every since we were small.

How true can it be? I've became even more confusing lately.

Shouldn't we suppose to live happily ever after together in one country? Sometimes I really don't understand why that they would like to give out comments such as ...

"You tak suka Malaysia, keluar dari Malaysia!"
If you don't like Malaysia, get out of Malaysia!

"Balik China!"
Go back to China!

Chinese were immigrants!

"I urge the Chinese not to become like the Jewish in America, where it is not enough that they control the economy, but they also want to dominate politics". [(one of the) Source]

... ever existed?!?

Besides, what was the rising of the "keris" in party's general assembly incident about?!

Apologies have been made regarding all the comments above. But all these hurt most of us deeply and left with scars.

Sometimes I just don't understand, how can we dominate politics but the truth is the highest post we can only managed is the Chief Minister.

Why we have to fill up the field Bumi / Non-Bumi? While it shouldn't ever exist at the first place!

If we are multiracial, we lived in unity and harmony... Why to separate into 2 categories?


It's like chopping a meat into 2 pieces!

Even Indonesia never categorize their chinese citizen as Non-Bumi. I know we complained a lot and we should keep quiet because we have no rights and we are just migrants. But things doesn't work this way...

A lot of parents nowadays encouraged their children to study overseas and it's even better if they can be able to find a job there.

sometimes its kinda sad when u think of where u belong to? People here doesn't treat us as the "locals" and foreign country wouldn't treat us as their citizen base on the legal documentation and law.

So, Tell me... Where is my home nation?! Which is my home country?!!

pp/s: By the way, like what namewee said "JANGAN TANGKAP SAYA, SAYA TARAK DUIT!"

*It all depends on how we look at things, and not how they are in themselves. *

Thursday, February 12, 2009

!@#$%^&*()#@#$

1.40am,

超讨厌这种感觉... 不想再要有这种感觉了...

!@!##@$@#$%^^%$^&%&^%

偶尔不要管酱多,不在乎,做人也会开心点!!! Let's mengamalkan tidak apa attitude... The Si Lan Dan attitude... Don't give a damn about everything, anything ... FUCK!

老板教的 ...

“ 在不顺意时,要记得随时鼓励自己,对自己说,‘ 我是可以的!’ ...
笑一笑,很快可以挨过去的... ”

Friday, February 6, 2009

How To Be A Rich Man FOR DUMMIES



" Hey guys, hope it's not too late to greet everyone HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! My apology for the long break, hehe... It's not that I've stop blogging anyway. ;-p "


Had a long Chinese New Year break back in Penang and Ipoh, meet lots of friends... That's what we're waiting for for the entire 365 days, RIGHT!?

A lot of us changed, but heck, i don't want to talk about others first lah! I want to concentrate on one particular thingy in this entry.

"Money" has become a very common topic lately... No lah, I didn't mean that we doesn't care about it during the early years... but just, it heated up along our age. You see, when you were 0-20, you were enjoying life, then from around 21-50 we damn got ohm one, work like cow one... wanna earn lots and lots of money!!! And then later on... well, guess I don't have to tell the later part of the story.


So, okay... enough of the craps. My point is I do understand that most of us wanted to get rich lah, but in fact, I do not understand why some of them just don't know how to be a rich man or should say don't know how to act to be a rich man =p (when the truth is that they are not that rich, but wanted to act/pretend to be a rich ass so that they can show off... )

However, some of them were such a failure! They sucks big time until I'm considering of promoting my all time best seller to them !!!! ....



Yeah, LOL... Sigh, sorry you can't find this in the bookstore because it is due to "never" production. So the only way is I'm giving some "sneak preview" of it...

How to be a rich man / act to be a rich man:

1. Will not complain about small cash like 30-50 ringgit. When joining for parties, chillout, or clubbing... what is 30-50 bucks to those who are earning over 10k per month, right? JUST PAY IT AND KEEP YOUR FUCKING MOUTH SHUT!!! (no one ask you to come anyway, infact don't think people will like to see this kind of people like you around! LOL)


2. Really buy a few K ring, or over 10K ring in front of your friends. (Provided that if u really wanna show off lahhh) But not bringing them along to a nice and luxurious jewelry shop and show everyone your fucking interest to buy a fucking big diamond ring that cost a bomb but end up not buying or saying that you will come back to buy it another day.



3. Really buy a luxurious car when you bring along your friend to a show room and tell him/them and the salesman that you're going to buy it tomorrow. But infact, the luxurious car that you are gonna buy is never being seen. (or never buy at all???)



4. Really buy a genuine Frank Muller. But not claimed to have one, or telling "fairy tales" like bought it for your gf's or whatsoever. In fact, you make people think that a bastard like you who likes to show off will show your branded watch instead of keeping it at home because no one sees it.

5. Claimed to earn a salary of over 10k but don't have the money / didn't bring enough money to open 3 buckets of beers. (although you did opened 2 buckets, credit to you! =) )



6. Claimed to have a platinum card and show off that only someone with a salary of over 10k is entitled to apply the card and ask someone to shut up and not to look down on you about your salary. HOWEVER, people don't know why the so called platinum card couldn't be use to swap 2-3 buckets of beers [refer to number 5].

7. Behave like a rich man, but not like a "sohaiz" oh ohhh, for the sake of internationalism... "sohaiz" = idiot, morron, bastard.

Elaboration:
Say something that doesn't make sense. Fool someone/everyone and thinks that he/they don't know anything but infact he/they just pretend to be a "sohaiz" as per request (by you).

Do something that even a fucking pervert guy wouldn't do. I don't think I need to explain how to pervert lahhh... LOL

8...

9...

10...

HEY! Buy the book lah! If I were to tell all here, then what's the point of publishing such an impressive book? Only... If you can find it in the book stores... HEHEHEHEHHEHEHE

P/s: I'm not intended to offend anyone other than one person. =) but if he could really get rich one day, I'll still congratz him =) I didn't mean to look down on anyone because I believe everyone have the abilities and chances to be successful.

* A man can be happy with any woman, as long as he does not love her. *

Friday, December 12, 2008

Love And Money

Ever since I came to work here in PJ, I've meet up with a lot of people, seen a lot of people who stay and work here. I must say life is tougher here, everything is about money, money, and money... These gave me enormous of pressure, depression and also developed sense of inferiority.



Yes I know, many would say, I shall not rush for success, rush to be rich, or feeling stress and giving myself pressure for all these because I'm still young and fresh. There'll be still a lot of chances.



The perfect matching of chances and timing plays a huge roll whenever we wanted to be success in anything, everything. I remembered how I used to tell people that were close to me that I'll be driving a BMW by the age of 25. Haha!!! Now, after I've worked for few months, I've realised how naive I were used to be back then.. A BMW? Let it be 3 series or 5 series... I think I couldn't make it. I mean, I couldn't even afford to give 300-600 Ringgit Malaysia for my parents as family welfare, how can I be able to buy a car that worth 300k - 600k??


* =.=""" swttt!!! What an advert!!! *

Same goes to "maintaining" a girl friend or I should say, a relationship instead. It might sound harsh that as if I were to say all girls are materialistic, hunger for luxurious life and wealthy partner. I couldn't deny that there're still true love out there, people who doesn't mind and care about wealth... But hey, please allow me to ask all of you a simple question...

Here goes the senario,

First of all, I understand that you don't mind to have a rich or a poor partner...
You also wouldn't mind that he/she will or will not buy you expensive and luxurious items...
Yet, you can still be happy with him/her, love him/her without all the above.



So, answer me honestly...

If your partner can give you a luxurious life, buy you expensive and branded stuff? isn't it'll be more perfect, more happier to have it?


* Owh man, I loveeeee this car~!!! *

Sometimes, somethings that you did not demand doesn't mean that you are not happy to have it. =)

Eventually, all of us also hope that our gf/bf will be happier, right? Who will complain that they are too happy and satisfy with their life?! LOL...

Here's the broken english type of saying
* Don't have ma don't have lo, have ma have lo.. But if have, of cause will be happier la! *

I'm not sure there's anyone understand what I wrote here due to my louzy expression ability and my "half pail water" of English...

By the way, life's sucks! Right? Really need to learn from those who said they are enjoying life... I think I really need to learn how to enjoy and adapt to all these...

I didn't mean to insult anyone here, It's just my own thought after all... =)

My sincere apology if there's any hard feeling after reading this blog entry.. =(

Sighhh... This year Christmas, I'm going no where... I missed traveling...

* Time is precious, but truth is more precious than time. *

Sunday, November 30, 2008

L.O.V.E. and Relationship



给我单身的朋友们...
To My Friends Who Are ... ... SINGLE

爱就像一只蝴蝶。越要追它,却越要逃避。
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you.

但...
But,

如果就隨它自由的飞,他会在你最不注意时飞向你;
If you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it;

爱使人快乐,却常伤害人,
Love can make you happy but often it hurts,

但只有在你把爱给了一个真正值得付出的人时,才是最珍贵的...
But love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it..

所以,花点时间去选择最好的 他/她 吧!
So take your time and choose the best!



给我那不是单身的朋友们...
To My Friends Who Are ... ... NOT SINGLE

爱不能使 他/她 成为一個 “完美的人” ,
Love isn't about becoming someone else's "perfect person",

它却可以使你找到一个帮你成长的 他/她 。
It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.



给我玩世不恭的朋友们
To My Friends Who Are ... ... PLAYBOY or PLAYGIRL

如果你不在乎,不要说 “我爱你” ;
Never say "I love you" if you do not care;

如果没有感觉,就不要讨论自已的感受...
Never talk about feelings if they ain't there...


* Don't think he'll be able to play with colors now... at least for the time being. *

不要涉足会使他人心碎的生活。
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.

说谎时,不要看著眼睛。
Never look into the eyes while lying.

最残忍的事莫过于男人让女人爱他,却是逢场作戏。反之亦然 ...
The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl or a girl can do to a guy is to let her/him fall in love when he/she doesn't intend to catch her/his fall... It have to work both ways...



给我已婚的朋友们
To My Friends Who Are ... ... MARRIED

不要老是说 “这是你的错” ,何不说说 “对不起” ,
Love is not about saying "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry" ;

不要老是问 “你去哪裡了” ,何不说说 “我就在这儿等着你” 。
Not "where are you", but "I'm right here waiting for you";

不要老是问 “你怎么会这么做?” ,何不说说 “我了解你” 。
Not "how could you", but "I understand."

不要老是说 “我希望你这么做” ,何不说说 “我感谢你的一切” 。
Not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are."



给我心碎的朋友们
To My Friends Who Are ... ... HEARTBROKEN

心碎的时间和伤害的深度,完全取決于你自已。
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.

难的是,如何从中学习,而不是从伤痛中爬起。
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.



给我所有天真的朋友们
To My Friends Who Are ... ... NAIVE

要如何恋爱?... 就爱吧!不要欲烟言又止;要互相协调,不要太固执;
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent,

要分享,且千万不要有不公平;要了解,別命令;
share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,

受伤后不要再记恨。
and get hurt but never keep the pain.


给我积极的朋友们
To My Friends Who Are ... ... POSSESSIVE

看到你所爱的 他/她 和其他人很快乐使你心碎
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but

但知道你所爱的 他/她 是和你在一起不快乐,令人更加的伤心。
it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.



给我不敢表白的朋友们
To My Friends Who Are ... ... AFRAID TO CONFESS

当你和 他/她 分手时,爱受到伤害
Love hurts when you break up with someone.

当 他/她 和你分手时,更是伤痛
It hurts even more when breaks up with you.

但伤害最深的是你所爱的 他/她 完全无法了解你的感受
But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.



给我那还在坚持着的朋友们
To My Friends Who Are ... ... STILL HOLDING ON

人生最伤心的事,是你和 他/她 爱情長跑了多年,最后的结局却不如所望。
find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.

如果 他/她 现在让你觉得不值得付出,那麽一年,甚至十年后,都不会值得付出的。
If he/she isn't worth it now he's/she's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now.

就让 他/她 走吧
Just let them go.....

* The sweet talk part is easy tarp, but not for girls who knows how to differentiate sweet talk and sincere talk. Unfortunately, most of the sincere talk doesn't taste sweet to them. *
From lowyat.net cupid corner.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Midnight Thought

Friends
They might leave you,
might hurt you,
might back stab you,
might do something bad to you;

Lovers
Yes they love you,
they care for you,
they pamper you,
and they miss you...

But still...

They might leave you,
might hurt you with the most cruelest words,
might turn their back on you when you're helpless,
might betray you,
and will do a lot of devilish things that you'll never get to imagine.

Till the end,

Parents are the best...
They are always there for you,
they care for you until they breath their last breath,
once as a child, you are forever their child,
they will never turn their back on you,
they will always provide shelter whenever you are in trouble,
AND THEY WILL NEVER EVER LEAVE YOU BEHIND IF THEY ARE GOING TO LIVE FOREVER!

Yes, there's no forever in life... I've learned this lesson twice.
But there's parental love that last longer and stronger than forever...



Love you mom, love you too dad...

I'm proud of both of you as my parents... I really do...

Thanks for everything~ Thanks for everything that you've gave us... =)

How to define F.A.M.I.L.Y. ? - "Father And Mother I Love You"

* Family will always be as one no matter what they've been through. *

Friday, November 21, 2008

Remember What Life Was Like Before‏

There was a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her.

She told her boyfriend, "If I could only see the world, I will marry you!"

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.

He asked her, "Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"

The girl looked at her boyfriend and saw that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She hadn't expected that. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note to her saying:
"Take good care of your eyes, my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine."

* Hugging is only a gesture of love, of warmth, of caring.
The very feel of the warmth flowing from the other person melts many illnesses in you, melts the ice-like, cold ego.
*

* This is how the human brain often works when our status changes. Only a very few remember what life was like before, and who was always by their side in the most painful situations. *

Human... are all selfish after all... Sighhh... zzzZZZzzz

A very good example General Tan gave me...
" When you are pointing at someone (the polite way - with your thumb), 4 of your fingers actually are pointing at yourself. "
In the end, it's still all about you, you, you, and yourself...


*~* Life Is a Gift *~*

Today,
before you say an unkind word,
Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about your husband or wife,
Think of someone who's crying out to GOD for a companion.

Sometimes,
When you're mad,
You have the right to be mad,
But you don't have the right to be cruel.

Today,
before you complain about life,
Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down,
Put a smile on your face and think: You're alive and still around.

* A loving heart is always the truest wisdom. *


Monday, November 10, 2008

Reboot

I have this personality / attitude / sickness ... or whatever you name it...

How come I am so computerize? woke up everyday in the morning ... and felt all the sadness, as if I had never handled it before ...

I called that... "System Reboot"

Sighhh... I hate it! I hate every morning! I hate the moments when i woke up...

I FUCKING HATE THE FEELING........ of feeling the same all over again...

zzzzzzzzzzzzz... Sorry that I'm feeling so EMO today...

* Acting is not being emotional, but being able to express emotion. *

Monday, November 3, 2008

Monday Morning

It is Monday,
Most of the people hate Monday, especially those who are working...
Woke up in the morning,
and it's late...
Suddenly felt the loneliness inside me,
and noticed that I'm all alone in the apartment as usual...
I don't know why that I just don't feel good,
Emo? Moody? Lonely?

Or I am not having enough rest and a good night sleep...
I don't know...
I really don't know...

Or maybe,...



I'm just like a can,
Happy can like me, is just empty inside ...

* P/S: I almost got killed by my car... Seems like something is wrong with my breaks, and I ended up almost found myself in the middle of the traffic lights. Sigh... I sensed a storm is coming... Wallet Bro, I'm sorry, you better be prepared *

*You'll never understand the reason, until you look deep enough into the cut to see the emotional pain that put it there*

Thursday, October 30, 2008

跳 - Jump








Think again when you think you're hopeless, look around you and don't give up... Because there is always someone who is deeper in trouble than you and me... But yet they are still fighting to stay alive.

*Experience is the worst teacher;
It gives the test before presenting the lesson.*